Pause

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My last blog post was in September 2023. I don’t remember when I posted my last pod episode. I’ve fallen off the wheel of articulating and sharing my fluffy thoughts online. 

When I started blogging again during the pandemic, I thought I would not be like other people who took up these things (blogging, YouTube-ing, podcasting) because of the boredom brought by the pandemic, and abandoned it when it was over. I’ve been blogging since LJ days and I thought I won’t get tired of it. Also, as a podcast and YouTube consumer, I hated it when the creators I listened to or watched stopped posting without an explanation. I also hated it when they decided to “pause” or stop their podcasts or channels altogether. When a creator uses multiple online mediums, it seems the first one on the chopping block when they decide to slow down is their podcasts which I hate because I’m such a pod listener. But look at me now, I’ve gone MIA too. 

I’m not a blogging or podcast superstar by any means but just like those people life happens to me too,  and as anti-climactic it seems, I have to pause. Life has been life-ing hard for me for the past few years. This year, adult life and obligations have been sucking the energy and motivation I have for writing. Also, talking about my work doesn’t seem so stress relieving anymore now that I’m facing more challenges being an individual contributor and a team leader at the same time. 

2023 has been the most difficult year of my little, quiet life so far. I’m dealing with impending dooms, dooms that have come to fruition, feeling lost, and being stuck in uncertainty. My birthday this year is probably the saddest one since I was 13.  I’m in this period of life where I’m having both a very late quarter-life crisis and an early onset of mid-life crisis. Floating is the best word that describes my life right now. As much as I would love to hold and grow roots at this point in my life, I am instead floating – “having little or no attachment to a particular place; moving from one place to another”

Moving on from my cryptic explanation, I trust the universe that whatever stuff I am going through now is just a phase. Writing fluffy things is my first love and I will always return to it. I just need to come out of this darkness. I don’t know what 2024 holds. Whatever dooms are happening now might continue next year. Nonetheless, there’s always hope attached to each new year that comes and I trust that things will turn around, hopefully according to how I want it but more importantly, turn around as it should happen.

 I’ve been living this little quiet life. Maybe the universe is saying that it’s time for a big shake-up for this girl. In the meantime, happy holidays and thank you to whoever has read my blogs or listened to my pod. I will see you on the other side. By then I will have a lot more material to write about.